can I say something, dont ever say that your standards are too high! it only means that you respect yourself enough to have those standards. there are millions .... correction billions, of people out there. the time will come, you will meet again. i think that you are doing the right thing by getting out, its too small and predictable for the likes of you..... an amazing place in the short term but there are bigger things waiting for you out there. its amazing how much you learn about yourself, your capabilities, your weaknesses when you travel. you are exposed to so many situations, forced to question all your beliefs....... you really have to take a step back and look at the way you life your life and the person you are. anyways, im off, i have to go feed my hamsters (fucking dickheads told me i was buying 2 girls, well i now have 13 fucking hamsters!) and if i keep writting any longer ill be able to publish this as my first autobiography